Long Night, new day...

It's been a bit of a long night, and I feel that I probably won't do much sleeping unless I get this off of my chest in some fashion. My wife and I are currently planning a move. I have accepted a job in Colorado Springs, Colorado, and we are trying to find out how we are going to be getting from Albuquerque up. And, naturally, we've been a bit overcome with the shock of how much it is going to cost. Which ended up leading to a large discussion about money...It's sad how often everything comes down to money, but it's true.

My wife and I ended up having a nice long conversation, a nice long depressing conversation, that has me in a bit of a bad mood, which is what I want to get out here. I grew up as part of a pretty well-to-do family. We weren't rich, but we never wanted for anything. It's a sad realization when you come to terms with the fact that you won't be able to provide as good of a life for your child as your parents provided for you. Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't change a single thing about the process that brought my daughter into the world, she is the most precious thing that I have ever known, but I know how good I had it as a kid. I was able to travel, play various sports, take private singing lessons, and get through both my undergraduate and graduate programs without any debt. Unless some kind of a miracle happens, some random rich family member that I never knew I had leaves me an insane amount of money, there is no way that I can give my daughter that kind of life. It's hard to put into words exactly how that feels.

Worse, there's not much I can really do about it. I can go get more degrees, and go deep into debt. I can go to administration, and probably never be as happy as when I was actually interacting with the students and making a real impact. I can try and find something else to do for a living, but there isn't anything else that I would want to do for the rest of my life. So I just have to accept it. I don't necessarily believe that life will be worse for my daughter, but I can almost assure myself and everybody else, that it will be more difficult, and for that I am deeply sorry. I'll just maintain hope, or try to, that people will wake up and begin to value education and educators. I do wish that it were an easier process, but there needs to be some kind of a revolution in regards to education. Something that will lead to a new and better day for the very students that America is leaving behind...